`the lyrics actually means alot___
`entry 15 第二顺位 (video)
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 3:48 PM
`entry 14 happy 牛 year!
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 2:32 PM
3o`o1`2oo9
the fifth day of new year!
this year de new year got no qi fen
it is hardly the same when compared to last year!
due to the recession, also known as jing ji peng zhang
haix sianx diao! with a bit of inflation here and there! gosh!
haix. super sianx also!
flash back~
reunion dinner! went back to tje same place to have a dinner together.
every year like that de mahx!
ok lo! so so lahx. eat with quite a lot of ppl
cousins, uncles, aunties...
having steamboat! quite fun, bbq`ing mahx.
then lao yu sheng.
hahas. quite fun lo! so many ppl crowding over a big plate of yu sheng
so squeezy! hahas. so many chopsticks here and there trying to lao.
then most of it spilt on the table lo.
then joke around.. hahas. actually wanted to go k de!
BUT I HAVE TO GO BACK MALAYSIA!
haix. k session become talking crap!
they taught me how to speak canto~
hahs, but keep laughing at my pronounciation.
[maybe wrong spelling]
haix. i already tried to speak as fluently as i can le!
then they ask me dont speak canto le, they cant stop laughing when they hear the weird slang of mine! pathetic!
they say i speak chinese better la! hahas
then after packing all those stuffs jiu go home le.
such a successful reunion dinner, all the credits shall go to those who were busy preparing it days before!!
all those la!! hahas thank you
went home, prepare to bai bai
every year like tt de.
last two years nv help her, cox went k ehx.
now help her lo!
then around 11 plus,
malaysia de uncle came to fetch us back!
hmmx. around 1 plus then took his car back to malaysia!
gosh!
that side de condition super pathetic!
hahas. so sianx lo! nth much...
how i wish i can get back to singapore asap!
haix. got a few red packets here and there la, but everything rengit! i also got no use!
then when got relatives come, hv to entertain them.
woa! everyone i dunno de lo! i seldom get to see them, less than once a year la!
where got so many things to say!
then ah gong will tell them my bro and me de condition in singapore!
super duper sianx! i jus keep replying ya ya ya
pathetic! then will got cousins tell me about there condition!
i am not interested lo! doubt they will be interested about ours!
sianx diao! like that for two days!
luckily still got ice cream man come! hahas. tt ice cream is diff from ours de!
quite special! $1 each! around 50 cents SGD! hahas
nice to eat! then play with fire crackers lo!
this is something tt cant be found in singapore!
second dae is ah gong de birthday! hahas
happy birthday
this is after so many years got so many grandchildren celebrate with him!
so long le. he is really touched!
hahas. but short of two lo! haix!
then around 7 plus like that go home le! hahas. but 12 then reach home!
second link got big big jam!!
jam for so long! siaox lo! some ppl very inconsiderate also!
wat the hell lo! they just cut in front of the queue like tt!
angry! hahas.
`entry 13 dejected_
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 8:15 PM
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dunno why am i feeling like that
kinda sianx diao nowadays!
cant really get my attention focus on something.
things are done with a bit impulsiveness...
i jus sae things that appear in my mind like that!
may offend ppl here an there.
but is like that lo!
sometimes i just dont feel like doing amything at all!
can someone pls explain these feelings to me?
arghh!
`hope the cny can make me in high spirits bahx___
`entry 12 my day
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 7:32 PM
21`o1`2oo9
hmmx. cant really think of a title for today!
did nth much! but kept thinking about yesterday!
dont really know what happened,
but it is really amusing for someone to escribe the feeling you ever felt it.
it is like so true. you can just relate to what he said!
you ever felt it? think it is common, but you just cant express tt kinda feeling.
it is amazing right.
well~
when you try to do something to get that feeling
or that illusion.
but that satisfaction just dont come out?
means you play com for fun or to make yourslef not that sianx,
you just dont feel it. you played to get enjoyment
but the mood you want is just not there?
instead, you start to feel a bit dejected?
i dont like such feeling!
i can really understand that kind of feeling!
DONT LIKE!
or when you very tired, you tried to sleep!
but even when you wake up, you flt the same!
same kind of shag!
or when you wanted to put in your best effort just to accomplish a task,
the results is not really there. but you tried very hard for it.
you dont feel the achievement! why is it like that?
sometimes when you are afraid of the outcome you dont want, you just work very hard for it!
because you are afraid!
sometimes, it is really the fear that bring you some where!
hmmx! really make a little bit of sense here and there! hahs
i ling wu dao le!
hahas! appreciated that somone told me how realistic the feeling is!
cool ehx! but i also cant do anything!
that kinda feeling just come naturally!
feeling empty? or what is it to describe that feel?
`empty, blurred___
`entry 11 new moon
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 11:10 AM
2o`o1`2oo9
the official date release of new moon REVEALED!
hmmx. it's 2o`11`2oo9
still so long ehx!! arghh! i must watch! =)
`entry 1o yesterday~
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 8:47 AM
2o`o1`2oo9
hahas. went for the interview yesterday!
with moo moo!
woa! the lift super scary, will feel pressure!
dont like the feeling of it!
the ears very xin ku! then when i come out yawn or swallow saliva also cant.
then, we dont really know that place.
looking for it untill a lady finally called out to us!
then, fill forms lo, after that that guy approach us.
actually was okay lahx
applied for the position of team member!
they required quite a lot of team member ehx!
hahas. 6 per hr. start only on 16 feb!
gosh! think that guy must have think that i am mad!
xinni made me ask the transportation allowance.
hao siao mahx? that guy really wrote on my form!
i should have told him lo! arghh!
that guy super funny, he asked me to wait at the corner of the room,
talking to moo moo first..
then! i also can hear what he was saying!
the room only got the 3 of us!
then when is my turn! i went to sit the seat moo moo just now sit de
then he checked my particulars, and repeated the same thing to me
i heard the same speech twice.
i can exactly anticipate the words he going to say!
gosh! super sianx diao!
we left after receving his namecard.
gave that number to xinni and yi shan!
cox maybe they interested! hahas.
then went to shop around that orchard with moo moo.
lunch and gossip!
since so long i have been gossiping. super funny!
that luch! woa! quite ex! my money gone!
the stupid ice cake!!! is just a scoop of ice cream then you flatten into a cake shape!
super gulible of me to thought that it was a cake! arghh!
after that went orchard mrt station!
MOO MOO WAKEN ME UP FROM MY DREAM!!!
she said that our ez link card will expire!
EXPIRE! any one know that?
so we must get a ez link card asap!
woa! i so shocked to hear her saying that it will expire in apr 2oo9
then need to buy new card! lols! so shocked! i didnt really believe ehx.
untill i saw the machine myself! thanks so much for that!
she bought a red card ad exchanged a blue/greenish card!
i was thinkin of ways to get an orange card!
if i got le then i will sae how i got it!
the card cost $5! then must top up $10 inside.
so you will be paying $15 for the card!
after that, we went wisma! shopping around lo!
saw yan hong from the escalator!
moo pointed it out de. i didnt really saw him!
hahas, but his onion head! super cool ahhx?
hhhmx. then we walk walk around jiu go home le!
i dont want to miss that a-go-go show! got nat ho ehx!
hahas~moo alighted first, then i super boring
then saw a girl reading eclipse! yeah! twilight fan!
super high! she was on the 3rd book le!
haha. i ask her where she get the book cover for the book.
she ask me to get it from city hall there of toa payoh!
super far! but a conver just began like that, nt knowing each other though.
we talked bout my fav character! EDWARD CULLEN!!
while hers was the father! sehx! then she still say edward cullen in the show not as shuai as what was written in the book! woa! where got lo! feel insulted~
then she asked me to finish book 2 asap, book 3 nicer!
hahs. book 2 damn hard to finish cox of my fave character!! lol
she bet that i will be more interested in book 3.
hahas. then she nearly forget to alight!
was really chatting happily! nv did something like that before!
酒逢知己千杯少 ,话不投机半句多! think it is really like that!
interactions with others are really so amusing! hahas.
just a book, common interest, can really make two strangers chatted like that!
so cool! hmmx. see~ twilight is really a good book that can make something like that happened!
hahas~ and ya!
`i did not miss call yesterday___
`entry 9 interview
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 10:40 AM
19`o1`2oo9
finally! i got a chance to interview ehx! hahas. so good!
chance only la! but hope they will recruit me
sorry jas,
jas tried to give me her job cox she quitting.
thanks so much for your concern too!
hmmx~
will be going out with moo later. hope it will be fun. but is interview first la.
no job de can still look for me, hopefully la!
cox they still hiring!
have been looking forward to this moment since saturday evening!
hahas. jia you clara.
hope it is okay!
`jia you___
`entry 8 so touched!
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 9:25 AM
19`01`2oo9
hahas. so touched by all the tags on my blog!
really thanks all of you so much!!
hmmx. but it is kinda hard to get a job now lo!
the economy isnt that good! you know?
hahas. but still trying la!
not to give up easily!!
this is what chai ling used to teach me since sec 3 lo!
hahas. but it was a-maths then! hahas
things change!
first day of work for chai ling??
hahas. hope things go well for her!
ok la! not to worry! i still searching.
but some employers are like yi mao qu ren!
damn angry about it!
how can like that right! cant judge the book by its cover ehx!
teacher also got teach la!
oh ya~
at first didnt really blogging bout this!
haix. trying to get over yesterday!
i did something bad. but wasnt really in good mood.
so~ hmmx. i broke my promise!
i understand how important it is not to miss call le!
but things just happen like that! inevitable!
phone was in silent! haix. 3 of the miss calls yesterday!
i didnt mean it ehx. told ah ni about it. she also say is my fault!
hmmx. i know la! i know the feeling when someone miss my call!
is like worrying for the person who nv pick up.
is she okay? did something happened?
is that kind of worry lor.
i was scolded by my mama before because of missing calls!
hmm was not the first time to call me for missing hmm's calls.
so i promised hmm that i wont miss call le!
but just one day, one day only.
then again, i miss calls again!
i am sorry! really feeling bad about it even till now
must understand that i am not one who breaks my promise easily!
a lot of chances were given though.
haix. forgive me la!
`not missing calls, my promise___
`entry 7 18`o1`2oo9
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 3:05 PM
hmmx. damn sianx.
got a pathetic dream yesterday. it was so frightenin
dreams are always opposite of the reality~
so i hope it is.
i dreamt that i was alone!
left alone in some where very dark! i dont even know where i was!
so scary! i shouted out loud but no one replied~
no body ehx. woa. i kept running and running
but the surrounding looks the same
as in it is all dark! cant see!
then i ran till i fell! i was also clumsy in my dream
gosh! i fell into a paddle of dark water and that feeling of falling is so real
thought i really fell, sometimes it is this kinda feeling that wake me up from the dream!
thanks for that! if not i wont be able to escape from the dream!
woa. i cant sleep back. scared that nightmare might just come back.
didnt really sleep well, haix. still a bit tired!
sleep deprivation! hahas.
then~
calling for that job again. said that i was giving up.
haix. but was qi hua la. had nv been so enthu for a job!
i sent in my resume ehx... hahas. yup! my boasting and lying.
hope they will call me soon lo! haix!
in need of a job!
`not to miss calls___
`entry 6 17`o1`2oo9
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 9:08 PM
hmmx. after considerations.
i thought of giving up
seriously!
does picture really mean more than words?
the narcissism_ obsession of oneself_appearance
haix. i bet it does. if not so long le i still no job yet.
thinking of ways to portray a better self.
how the hell can i really do that.
want looks no looks, want talent no talent, want skills also no skills.
pathetic? it is really so.
haix. what the hel when they say they want experience de
i understand. having the relevant experience can make the job easier.
but also got law of diminishing marginal returns (LDMR) mahx.
it is okay to employ those without experience de.
if there is no one kind enough to provide jobs for these ppl, they will still stay unemployed!!
he/she will not get any experience unless there is one kind soul to give them such a offer!
understand? so start to employ them!!! this is important!
there must be one to kick the ball rolling!
experience isnt something that will drop from the sky, it dont!!
Bear this is mind!
not receiving calls, not getting replies!
thanks chai ling for concerning me today!
she told me to look for more agency, one agency not enough, must find more!
thanks yi shan, xinni.
told me to send my resume everywhere!
thanks yu tian and weili.
keeping a look out for jobs for me!
~but sometimes
i really feel like giving up!
just heck everything like that.
i know. no one knows it better than me
cant understand how badly i wish to earn money!
haix, giving up, rest for a while before i take another run!
~then
i understand how important is it to pick up calls.
important calls and not to miss them le!
i understood! the feeling is like what the hell!
i have got important to say, yet the one on the other end jus dont bother!
it might be not as important for the one on the other end,
but as a caller! you need to get the message conveyed!
be it whether it is just a causual conver o not!
a causual conver also mean that someone out there still cares for you, wanting to talk to you!
replying messages also weigh the same weight!
really understand all these feeling. throughly!!!
`giving up_____
`entry 5 17`o1`2oo9
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 9:06 PM
woa!! new look for my blog.
when you get dazzled by some perfection, it became addiction!
hahas. cheers! =)
`entry 4
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 5:58 PM
entry 4
16`o1`2oo9
hmmx. dead le. still didnt managed to find any job..
broke! no money le la.
was some how addicted to twilight!
the story plot or the character?
i must admit that edward cullen is very suave, though.
cant stop reading it!! so cool lo
dazzled by the perfection of edward cullen!!
he is near perfection, or maybe over perfection.
hmmx. could hardly believe that words alone can actually make one shuai~
oh ya~
i got a call in the morning from recruit express ehx.
i missed it twice..
think gone le.
when i call back, they nv answer it.
haix. everytime i'd miss those important calls de.
2 just now and 5 yesterday...
oh my god! hmm must be damn furious with me.
i didnt meant it la. =)
i wouldnt miss it if i know it is important.
then~
i'm still trying to take a photo that is well enough for resume.
gosh, could hardly take a decent picture!!
HARDLY lo.
haix. disappointed.
resume writting is already hard enough.
some of the parts is really boasting balantly!!!
hmmx. but resume...
a document to make yourself more appealing.
agree? woa. crapping here and there lo.
really thanks a lot for those who contributed for my resume.
yi shan hor? hahas.
your credit noted!!
hmmx. finally understood how hard looking for job is..
and always, when you dont get what you wanted.
start cursing and swearing.
have been ren qi tun shen`ing
always de~ when they say considering before they call you,
you will be clever enough to know that it is gone!
woa. all my thoughts!!! agrhh
hope there wont be so much time for my complaints le.
yup~ thanks for all the encouragements and concerns when things dont turn out smoothly!
APPRECIATED!
`job ahhx!!!
`entry 3
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 1:39 PM
entry 3
1o`o1`2oo9
angry and fustrated!
`entry 2
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 10:36 AM
entry 2
1o`o1`2oo9
哭笑不得，是我现在的心情吧
我知道也非常明白，但这心情还是不知不觉地出来
was once here
`when will my job come to me?_____
`entry 1
`addicted___因为我爱上你了 6:18 PM
entry 1___
o5`o1`2oo9
YEAH!!! 2009
hahas welcome 2009.
like nothing special lo. just another year!
but 2008 is really a fruitful one. Fantastic.
Looking back at 2008_
quite a lot of things happened.
1.conflicts, bad memories
suddenly friends just fall apart. nothing really happened. but sometimes relationships are really like that. you dont know what can happen the next day just because of an incident. but the best part is____ if there are ways to mend it, ties are even stronger than before!
2.death
separation from loved ones
身命就如此脆弱，如此的不堪一击
死去的有多难过，活着的却有多痛苦
日子一天一天地过，记忆里的画面也会渐渐地模糊吧?
this might be the ending for some, but it can also be the beginning for others.
learning to live life wothout the existence of one..
花开花谢，潮起潮落, 应该就是这个意思吧
3.wonderful memories
class bonding session! woa. our class became so bonded. suddenly!!!
then the class play match... play daring games... play digusting shit games during prom.
class spirit dont just end here. it must be forged even after this.
4.birthday celebrations.
mei qi~ spray water at her then went to lunch together
shan~ got one super surprising present for her
zoey~ present but cant share
xinni~ cant share also
haha! my birthday___ memorable bahx.. but there are also something cock up in between lo.
year 2oo9_a year to Achieve, to Change, to Expect
1. hope to get good results
2. all to be happy and healthy everyday
3. get a job to offset the effect of increasing transport fare
4. economy to be okay
5. hahas [secret]...
`really need my dreams to come true_____