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woa. super sianx. just another day.
sometimes, i really wonder why are we on earth.
and what are we going to do here.
what is the purpose of living on earth.
the major questions that we should be asking ourselves.
guess there wont be much difference with or without me..
i bet it is the same. the whole damn same!
each day after another.. days are almost the same ehx.
no longer feel the drive in me. sianx diao!
everyday is like that! running bonkers soon!
very soon! like yesterday... damn shit..
i really got pissed off while tuitioning chinese!!
lol! what the hell!
haix. then now. super boring! had been having the same routine of life everyday.
gosh! since dunno when. then found new hobby of crystal`ing...
crystal`ing is the only thing that i found the true joy in.
accompanied by levels of satisfaction.
hmmx. maybe opening blog shop.. hahas.
must see what my business partner`s say first.. lol
as i was saying.. there wont be much difference with or without me..
hmmx. think this is very true.
the earth will continue to revolve around the sun.
the sun will continue to rise and set.
the low tides and high tides will still happen during the estimated time.
time continues and life goes on...
neither did i play a significant role is somebody's life [except for my family]
nor make any significant contribution to the earth that makes me great.
sooner or later, you will realise that you finally reach the last page of your own book.
this is the true moment you wake up from everything.
life in the past will just become memories or worse still, illusion.
life is always like that. furthermore, since it is a book, the author had already planned and designed everything bahx. predestined.
something that i believed in.
then you are just playing a tiny weeny role in the book.
for me, i am sure that i am not the main lead. always
i do not have what it takes to be the main lead!
no flies or butterflies circling me..
instead, i am the flies or butterflies surrounding others.
maybe the butterflies surrounding the sunflower. whereby the sunflower is reaching for the sun.
so the sun will be the main main lead!
i dreamt to be the sun. but it is just a dream.
dream wont come true like how wishes dont get fulfiled.
there will be miracles when you believe
i once believed that miracles will happen only when you believed. but i had been believing for so damn long that nothing miraculous really happen.
should i continue my wishful thinking?
doubt there will be anyone who choose to believe this.
since i had got nothing to lose while believing then i might as well continue my wishful thinking..
is it just wishful thinking? or am i naive? or rather going back to my delusions again?
haix.. in actual fact this is just avoiding. always true...
ever wondered how life will be without me? or without knowing me?
guess life just goes on...

`life is like that___