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`Clara...
`18
`on the verge of falling
`fallen___and dead!!!

`addicted to the perfection of___
zac efron!
edward cullen!

When you can live forever, what do you live for?

listening


无重力~


bella's lullaby~

eclipse


WishingUponTheStars

`ubrightenupmydae,livenmyspiritsncompletemylife!o3o42oo8

`really
`what i wish will really come true,
pls, at least for once_____
`give in my very best for studies
`ENERGY to come back_____
i really need it!
` me to be me again.


our memories
; February 2007
; March 2007
; April 2007
; May 2007
; July 2007
; August 2007
; September 2007
; October 2007
; November 2007
; April 2008
; May 2008
; June 2008
; July 2008
; August 2008
; September 2008
; October 2008
; November 2008
; January 2009
; February 2009
; March 2009
; April 2009
; May 2009
; June 2009
; July 2009
; August 2009
; September 2009
; October 2009
; November 2009
; December 2009
; March 2010


belong together
`lin feng
`xiao zhu_luo zhi xiang
`wuchun
`aaron
`jiro
`calvin
`xiao gui

`shan
`dilys
`meiqi
`xinni
`zoey
`neu syhan
`yanhong
`tlcn
`serene
`mei ting
`kai xian
`zhong ri



murmured words







breaking dawn
designer: veronicanote
basecodes:xrated.


credits for youtube for the wonderful lullaby. =)

`entry 48 17 again!

`addicted___因为我爱上你了 9:54 PM

2o`o4`2oo9

today is a day out with yi shan!!
we went movie`ing! cool man!
who says you're only young ONCE? zac efron 17 again!
woa. it is an interestin movie that is worth all your popcorns and nachos!
the appearance of zac efron itself is already worth all the trivial matters!
hahahas. this is the first time we went there so early..
cox i scared later get lousy tickets. hahas kiasu!
got no idea if the popcorn is influenced by the movie, but the popcorn today is really very sweet and cripsy!! that time we watched valkyrie de popcorn so lousy!
then i was so into the movie!! hahas. i kept commenting!
though some parts are expected cox i watched the trailer!! hahas
interesting still! he is so shuai!! woa.. every scene lehx.. hahas
especially that scene whereby he came out of his car!!
suave!!! hahas.
he looks cool in that suit! simply got attracted to him le.
he played his role so nicely that was out of expectation...
i thought he still carries the tron bolton image on him.. but i was a totally different feeling..
he is so.... fantastic!
this movie is highly recommendable.. hahas
have been wanting to watch this movie since dunno when! hahas
then... we went lunch!
went shopping.. just walking around lo.. bought a shirt..
hahas, i could fit into it ehx! hmmx.
there are still do many things i want to buy!
saving money.
walking is a bit tired... but it feels fun.. hmmx. even the simplest thing you do will be enjoyable once you set your mood right and found the perfect companion! hahas. cool horx?
hahas.

`sometimes the anticipation itself is worth more than the outcome you thought it could be___


`entry 47 thoughts

`addicted___因为我爱上你了 11:29 AM

18`o4`2oo9

hmmx. so sianx.
some how feel that this week isnt a very smooth sailing week.
dunno how come recently got this kinda feeling.
a lot of setbacks! haix.
sianx diao!
will people start to feel like me?!
hmmx. a question that i have been asking myself so often.
till i cant even get an answer out of it.
the answer is so simple.. but the more i am into this question.
the more i will start to feel that the answer is simply too simple to justify something like that!
have you ever wondered?!
if tomorrow is the last day of your life, then what will you do?!
hmmx. i thought of living life without regrets.
`to live everyday like there is no tomorrow___to live life without regrets.
how simple it sounds, but how hard it actually is!
to live with no regrets... sound easier than being done...
oh my god!!! i got so irritated to think of this.
do you know how hard is it if i am really going to live up to this..
i have been thinking.. most of my days were spent in regrets...
since young...
i remember that i am not that rich..
so i will enjoy rounds and rounds of consideration before i set my mind in getting something i wanted dearly... i will always go to the shop, just to take a glance at the thing i wanted. then i will leave happily, foolishly thinking that the thing is still there!
i will try to save a lot of money... three to four times of the price of the thing i wanted, before i could set my mind into buying that thing...
then.. when i decided to buy.. the things are often sold out...
i dislike myself for being like that...
so i tried to get the easier way out... i tried! tired of trying...
i tried to act on impulse. to act on impulse!!
i will buy that thing instanly given that i got money with me..
then... when i got home.. i analyse that product damn thorougly!
damn thoroughly because i thought that i might have like the product so dearly that i bought it off the rack upon seeing it!
then i will start to see that the product isnt something that i should have bought it!
so silly right!! then i start to regret! oh my god!
i just cant decide! cant never weigh the decisions properly.
i will tend to feel sorry for the alternative that is being forgone... then will mumble and nag myself again.. how can i be like that..
to live without regrets is definitely a challenge for me!
oh my god! to live without regrets___
but to do so.. i will have to do things like confessing. hahas. lol
but the outcome of living without regrets might be another blow to me.
how can i ever survive from it.
just confessions for example... then!
i would not rather do it. i fear! i fear everything..
the fear of being reject!! oh my god! isnt it scary?! think i might as well be an ostrich.
i dare not face the outcomes!
If you're an ostrich about your debts, you're only going to make matters worse: it would be much better to take your head out of the sand and face facts, however unpleasant.

`to live without regrets___


`entry 46 back

`addicted___因为我爱上你了 4:01 PM

13`o4`2oo9
woa. it has been so long since i blogged.
i went away mahx. was at thailand. hahas
went for a trip there. it was really interesting...
hahas. we checked in early in the morning..
6 plus. then all luggage was send in via the conveyor belt..
then had a small breakfast before leaving for bangkok..
quite nervous lehx. hahas. i dont like the pressure in the ear while flying.
the pressure was alright though..
then when we reach, i go for the wrong bag. it was the correct belt but i cant recognise my bag..
i took the wrong bag and start to ask why is it so heavy.. hahas.
then i realised!
somemore there like ren sheng di bu shu like that then saw those people fetching tourist de taking tourist de name like fans like that. super funny lo..
we didnt manage to have one of the big taxis. got book in advance but they just never send people here or wat. super irritating!
when i stepped out of the airport. then i know that what the captain said was true.
super hot! the temperature was 38! woa!! siaox. like in oven like that.
and jet lag of one hour.
in the taxi, i was like a typical singaporean who started to nag about howlousy and dirty the enviroment is. hahas. kinda cant stand it. the streets were like quite run down like that.
hahas. we reach the hotel then straightaway headed out for sightseeing..
supposed to go to grand palace of thailand! but shorts and singlets are prohibited!
sehx!! where got like that de. some more the entrance fees was like 350 baht. close to 15 sgd!so ex! then we decided to give it a miss lo..
we took a turn and went for shopping instead.
got shopping mall lehx!! interesting! thought ot will be lousy de area! hahas.
to my surprise, there were shopping centres there lehx! i was like a typically singaporean who would only shop in shopping centre.
hahahas. super tiring.. very tired after shopping. but the time barely passed. lol
went to the roadside to eat dinner! woa! like super dirty lo. i was like eer here and there.

`day 2___
wake up early in the morning.. then we went sightseeing since the first attempt wasnt successful.
went to wat arun! hmmx. it was very nice ehx. all the sculptures! all very detailed.
the stairs was like super steep lo!!
but i went up lehx! hahas. can imagine??
was proud of myself for it..



`wat arun

then the next place we went was wat pho..
hahas. there was a lot of ang moh there! hahas. some ver shuai..
especially one that accidentally knocked into me. hahas. super shuai!
since then i addicted to ang moh le. hahas! super funny!



`wat pho
then the buddha there was like so majestic lehx!
alot of people went there just to take a glimpse of it.
it was really nice! worth the trip there!



`buddha
then this was the place where i accidentally knocked into people.
it was too crowed! notice the pots in the pictures?!
hahas. it was for the monks i think.. hmmx. i exchanged a bowl of coins for 20 baht..
then when we put the coins into the pots got 'ding ding ding' de sound! cool lo.

`pots

then we went back.. by the taxi..
kinda book the driver for a day.
we were supposed to go to the shopping malls near our hotel!
but Road closed! woa. i so shocked.. the hotel de receptionist ask the drive to drive us back..
not to go shopping for that day. road close due to red shirt protestors occupying the road for protest! woa! i saw it myself lehx! all of them were wearing a red shirt as in i think they will bring the shirt along with them where ever they go!
they were singing and aome inviting people to join them..
we then heard from the driver that there were some other groups represented by different colours like blue, white and yellow.
hmmx. we headed back to hotel.. then wewaited for the news..
but also no use lahx.. all the channels there in thailand speak thai de lahx.
i also dont understand lo. but pictures could speak a thousand words.. hahas.
for that day we were stuck in the hotel..

`day 3___
another shopping day.. but i tried something interesting!
i took a ride on tuk tuk!! it was thailand's famous transport.
cool! they can be seen all over the streets! super interesting..
because they are smaller in size compared to other transport, they were able to overtake other vehicles swiftly!
it was so fascinating! hahas. i got amused easily!

`tuk tuk in thailand

i really got amused easily.. hahas. thailand is also famous because of its flawless transexual..
woa! i cant really recognised them lo. but some of them were really very beautiful..
i really take my hat off them! a lot of courage must be needed to make that option bah!
hmmx. then the girls there were powerful too..
who says that men are stronger!! i see how females worked as construction workers there!
it was really impressive! building this and that, most of the efforts were contributed by our girls!! it is really impressive! they were really strong and can br compared to any male construction workers! they dont slack because they are female, they have got the same work load as any make there. there werent any special privileges.. they had got equal treatments, no double standards!
seriously i think everything was very interesting! an eye-opener for me!
cool lo! then they seriously need to brush up on their english. if not very hard to communicated with them! hahas. but it was fun listening to their accents! so cute!
i learnt a lot.
`experience___
all pictures credits go to yahoo images..
p.s. i left my camera with my cousin


`entry 45 waking up

`addicted___因为我爱上你了 2:28 PM

o1`o4`2oo9

yo! it's april fools' day!
oh my god!! today is the most pathetic day i had..
waking up i saw messages from zoey and moo...
then all thanks to zoey, i realised that today is april fools' day.
decided not to get tricked for today...
then my student messaged me saying that she dunno if she can make it for tuition today..
i start to wonder if it is a joke. haix.
then i on my com and went online...
saw people de facebook personal messages saying that they got a place in uni le.
so fast.. the moment whereby i woke up instantly ehx.
i thought it will be around end of may though.
so scary.. the moment of realising is always scary!!
far from what i have expected..
is like everyone is getting a candy on the children day and i am not getting mine!
then bloodily i am still going around asking if they get their candy.
i am left behind lehx! LEFT BEHIND!!
oh my god.. this feeling is totally lousy..
hate it! hate it so much. got no mood now..
shit!!!
the sun shinning outside is like super proud then laughing at me like that.
even with such a warm weather, the fan refused to face me in a proper direction makes me think that even the fan belittle me!
arghh!
pathetic! feel like shouting out loud!
i then realised that when something gets into your way, you dont get what you wanted, you dont get what you desired.. everything just dont go nicely into your eyes..
even the slightest thing like a typo that keep happening just makes you think that what a lousy finger i had... or the stupid keyboard is at fault...
arghh!! what the hell has become of me?!
got super sensitive, super irritated and easily pissed off!
am i really as pathetic and as lousy as i think? my mind just cant function properly now! there maybe a short circuit somewhere yet i didnt realised it. didnt care about it. simply cant get bothered about it.
but now.. this short circuit that i have is bothering too much..
i cant afford to have all the irritating feelings and lousy feelings in me all day long.
it feels kinda shit! kinda lousy.. it is like you having a reminder programmed in you which is to remind you how lousy you are everyday...
i wont be able to run from this until someone pull me out..
i wont be able to be free until someone drag me out.
only the one who bloodily scold me and wake me up will rescue me from this..
but all this feeling came from somewhere, a place called the heart whereby it controls your feelings. all this happen because of fear! because i am afraid!! because i have got no faith in myself!!!

`because my loss in confidence bleed me dry___