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hmmx. so sianx.
some how feel that this week isnt a very smooth sailing week.
dunno how come recently got this kinda feeling.
a lot of setbacks! haix.
sianx diao!
will people start to feel like me?!
hmmx. a question that i have been asking myself so often.
till i cant even get an answer out of it.
the answer is so simple.. but the more i am into this question.
the more i will start to feel that the answer is simply too simple to justify something like that!
have you ever wondered?!
if tomorrow is the last day of your life, then what will you do?!
hmmx. i thought of living life without regrets.
`to live everyday like there is no tomorrow___to live life without regrets.
how simple it sounds, but how hard it actually is!
to live with no regrets... sound easier than being done...
oh my god!!! i got so irritated to think of this.
do you know how hard is it if i am really going to live up to this..
i have been thinking.. most of my days were spent in regrets...
since young...
i remember that i am not that rich..
so i will enjoy rounds and rounds of consideration before i set my mind in getting something i wanted dearly... i will always go to the shop, just to take a glance at the thing i wanted. then i will leave happily, foolishly thinking that the thing is still there!
i will try to save a lot of money... three to four times of the price of the thing i wanted, before i could set my mind into buying that thing...
then.. when i decided to buy.. the things are often sold out...
i dislike myself for being like that...
so i tried to get the easier way out... i tried! tired of trying...
i tried to act on impulse. to act on impulse!!
i will buy that thing instanly given that i got money with me..
then... when i got home.. i analyse that product damn thorougly!
damn thoroughly because i thought that i might have like the product so dearly that i bought it off the rack upon seeing it!
then i will start to see that the product isnt something that i should have bought it!
so silly right!! then i start to regret! oh my god!
i just cant decide! cant never weigh the decisions properly.
i will tend to feel sorry for the alternative that is being forgone... then will mumble and nag myself again.. how can i be like that..
to live without regrets is definitely a challenge for me!
oh my god! to live without regrets___
but to do so.. i will have to do things like confessing. hahas. lol
but the outcome of living without regrets might be another blow to me.
how can i ever survive from it.
just confessions for example... then!
i would not rather do it. i fear! i fear everything..
the fear of being reject!! oh my god! isnt it scary?! think i might as well be an ostrich.
i dare not face the outcomes!
If you're an ostrich about your debts, you're only going to make matters worse: it would be much better to take your head out of the sand and face facts, however unpleasant.

`to live without regrets___