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haix. rotten feeling in me again.
feel kinda pissed off for whatever reasons.
i just feel that i am not getting what i wanted.
i am being blocked, obstructed. just cant get to the other side of the world i wanted..
so sicked of this feeling. things just dont get right!
then! haix. so dislike this kind of feeling...
do you ever get the feeling of getting the lousy feeling stuck in you for so damn long?
worried worried and worried!
when can i ever get all these out of my head.
it just dont feel great or even nice to have so many what the hell things stuck in me..
does the earth just rotates without me? does it just forsake me and leave me aside to fend for myself? i will die like that!
i cant fend for myself, i cant survive on my own.
this is how lousy i am, and i am really admitting it this time.
not deluding myself, not avoiding the facts.
i am facing it now. straight into my face. i know that i sucks.
i know how badly i stand. but does the world just really forget about my presence?
or does it simply dont care?
dont care if i am getting what i wanted.
dont care if i am blocking the way of anyone.
heck care if there is anyone mistreating me.
these are all craps! i cant stand it... somehow i feeling like shouting out to everyone out there.
to let them notice my presence! not to seek attention but just to let them know that i am here!
can someone just make sure that you know about my presence?
it's not a great feeling when you are neglected.
it just sucks to the core! i feel sad and miserable. dont like this kind of feeling.
haix. i dunno lahx! I DUNNO!!!
dont feel good.
can someone just lend me his/her listening ear!
i want to complain about all the shit i felt in me!
hope at least someone will be able to listen to my crap!
though it might be crap.

`just need someone to know that i am here_____