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hmmx. somehow true.
i have been forgetting myself..
but in the first place, do i forget myself first or do i get the feeling of being forgotten first.
the latter one seems true as i often got neglected.
for who i am. i will need to find something that makes me feel me.
guess they are different things anyway.
haix. i have been rotting.
super irritating feeling that i had always have.
cant bring it off.
so sianx ahhx!
ever wonder why is life always like that?
will get sicked of it somehow and aometimes..
haix.. i still so so worried lo...
haix. dying soon. why will life become a complete what the hell for me?
haix. the feeling of damn shit never got stuck in me so discernible before.
haix. why is it always like that..
somehow i feel that i cant keep lamenting on what i dont like..
instead, i should do something to acheive something i desired..
talking is always simpler than acting.
everytime when i set my foot into something, i dont know why,
but will withdraw it sooner or later.
this is me. haix. cant ctand me for this part.
hmmx. i always wanted to live a life of my own.
my desired life! even wonders can be true here.
but first of all, i will need a little magic here and there to brighten up my dull life.
hope it works this way.
and there is a quote whereby i found it true..
Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.
but at least it ended in a way i wanted it to.
and then. i will be looking forward to the next day.
and do my very best to let it has another perfect ending like the day before.
the ending will be perfect as long as the mood is perfect itself.
i wondered when was the last time i said it. but not now anymore...
you made my day.

`perfect day awaits_____