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memories...
something that you remember from the past
past events or events remembered.
memories are always beautiful and i regretted not living in memories..
or delusion.
sometimes, when the earth just revolves too fast,
or the ticking of clock just seems so rush.
then you feel like slowing down. even just for once!
can memories be brought back?! and start all over again..
ALL OVER AGAIN.
but again, will things change if a different decision was made?
will it be a total different thing?!
how i wish to go back again..
without it, i am lost.
just like... haix. the feeling of lost is so hard to describe..
everything seems to be lost in direction.
so lack of energy in everything i do!
LACK OF ENERGY, MOTIVATION, DRIVE!
haix, i wondered what really happened.
since i was the one saying all the craps.
my mind is in a whirl and everything doesnt seems right!
memories are meant to be beautiful so as to let it be memorable.
everything in memory is so perfect.
memories are beautiful because they are short!
but just because they are short, i havent had enough of it!
haix. so many things left unsaid and undone.
adding up to the whole load of regrets i already had!
when can i live without all these regrets?
things are always easier said than done!

`regretting_____