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haix, i wonder what has really become of me!!
it's like i am feeling so pissed off! so!!
initially i was okay with it!
really okay! then i start to think of what i can do to make things better.
but in the end. this was the kind of attitude i get.
things dont pay back in a way i contributed!
this is unfair! then in a way~
i sort of have a thinking! i understood something.
since this is the way how things work out,
since the way of things working out follows a steady random pattern of reoccurence,
then i should not contribute so much.
i should not get myself involved so much.
i should just shut up and heck everything.
just simply heck everything that does not concern me.
is this considered selfish and bad?
but when things really appear in this way, what else can i do??!
i am always the one being at disadvantage...
it is always like that. i am so sicked of it,
but i said nothing! nothing i can say too.
everything seems to revolve around you.
can i have my own circle of revolution too?

`trying not to be the one to be revolving, tired of it_____