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just realised that i had spent another day just like that.
without doing anything productive.
hahas! i am always like that. i think
and~ i really really start to dread school.
not feeling the urge to do homework anymore.
sometimes it's like i cant catch up, and feel like hecking everything.
i know that i should not be having this kind of feelings.
but i just cant helped it.
believed that i am just used to this kind of attitude since sec 2.
that kind of rotten attitude, kind of simply cant be bothered.
when i dont understand the topic, i just let it be.
i thought that, as times goes by, i will understand,,,
LOL! this cant be true. then the homework!
seems to pile up! and i simply copy my work from others to get it over and done with.
copied from so many ppl! if i never remember wrongly...
hmmx. got sin theng, yan hong, meiqi, eleen, wei chiang...
hahas. so memorable then..
but now i realised that this wont bring me anywhere..
i have to change! and must change!
hahas. but hard to change...
so tired! feel like having a break..
a break from everything!
not going to school. and just relax!
dont think will happen at all.
haix. so tired! so sianx. no motivation anymore..
i just need to find my motivation and carry on with my work.
and! [random] i think. friends are meant to de drifted apart when they dont talk to each other that much.
dont really like that kind of feeling.
but what can i do?!
i cant be possibly talking to my friends every now and then..
i must be mad! to even thought of doing something like that.
but. friends come and go.. only true friends last forever..
cant do anything and dont wish to be doing anything.
sicked and tired!

`i need my motivation_____