`dazzled by the perfection____

25`1o`2oo9
it has been so long since i blogged. super long
cox that time really busy. so had to gave up all my time.
super sianx!
think today de mood is completely different from 1st oct bahx. at least i try to grow up..
who knows falling might be just another experience that i need to learn.
yup. just treat everything as a learning experience..
a simple gesture might mean different things.
things that are said might also be different.
an action that is taken by you may lead to a lot of different comments by people.
this might be due to the fact that we. people interpret things differently.
might be due to different cultural differences or values??
hmmx. things its like that... at least you learnt something while you fall?!
hahas. another way of consoling myself??
things are so different nowadays..
people are just reading too much into things! lol!
that firday! woa! super irritated...
i was waiting to board the train.
and messaging.. then my phone accidentally knocked into a bitch..
just bump into IT lightly! my phone slide didnt even slide down lahx.
so can imagine how light is the bump?!
freaking hell. i apologise some more..
then that bitch. woas.. childish bitch.
she purposely come bang into me when she was alighting...
what thw hell bitch lo! sucker!
hahas. and i am addicted to tao hua xiao mei. blog other day!
hahas

`to be continued_____

yup. back!
hahas. so sianx. suddenly so tired!
very very tired. feel like having a break. like not doing any thing at all..
have been saying this since dunno when. but simply just too little time for too much things..
hai. tired. sianx.
suddenly felt like going back to the past.. the past. not long ago.. but just a few months or years back??
just that period of time where i get a lot of care and concern.
a call asking me how i am,
a message asking me what i am doing, have i eaten my dinner, or have i finished my homework.
i really miss it a lot. suddely. really alot.
missing all the stuffs alot. but i dont really know what happened.
and things are left like that.. haix. i just no energy to care about it anymore.
some how tired. but hope all the things will come back..
miss my buddy a lot!

o1`1o`2oo9
happy children's day!
but children day aint happy for me at all.
just another stupid day.
but at least intro to business and management is fun today!
i managed to survive the lecture! it's really okay!
first time i felt that it was so okay! i went to sit in front!
decided to sit in front, if not really cant concentrate!
then! woa. my blood really boiling with rage!
dont understand what people are thinking nowadays!
they are just so fake and bloody hell!
they are getting on my nerves! and haix! i really dont know what to do!
simply reading too much into things! trying to act professional.
professional in juggling masks?! sure they are!
but i really cant stand it anymore.
i am going mad soon! i was just not aware of which was the correct and real side?!
or the more you try to show and manifest,
the more you lost your true self!
this will be so pathetic! one without their true self, is like one without their identity!
then you might as well disappear! since it does not make any differences from the time you lost your character!
i really dunno what to say!
but wincy told me to have a damn attitude!
dont really care about it! give a freaking damn attitude.
woa! super! heck! sometimes it's this kinda of attitude that ensures survival!
thanks wincy!
haix. i dunno what am i really doing! i'm just sicked of it!
dont understand why and how things can become like that!
bloody deep shit! i suddenly thought of a question!
`which of the supernatural power do you want to have?
i had always wanted the power of reading thoughts! like edward cullen in twilight!
but after that, i realised that the best power was shield!
you need a shield to protect yourself from harm and dangers.
reading thoughts is cool. but how cool can it be?!
after being able to read the thoughts of people,
you realised that people arent as simple as you think?!
who knows how deep is the hatred your best friend had towards you?!
your friends plotting against you?
SEE?! reading thoughts just expose you to the ugly side of human nature that you do not want or rather do not wish to see at all!
how sad is that?! after being able to read thoughts, you discovered that people around you are walking with their masks. you are living in a pretentious world?!
i dont really like this kind of feelings! after knowing all these, then whom can you trust?!
at this point of time, i think i will just look for the man in the mirror!
the only one you cant trust! if you dont even trust the man in the mirror, then nodoby is worth your trust.
it takes a long time to build up a trust, but just one seconds to break it.

`do not impose on others what you do not want others to impose onto you_____

happy birthday, i hope you can hear that!