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就让我慢慢学习

学习悲伤的时候

不闭上眼睛

趁眼泪还没形成前

就在空气中蒸发掉

such a meaningful phrase..
very profound..
but true. everything needs time to learn and time to heal...
but the healing process is still so long!!
haix.. wonder when will miracles happen to me...
so many people had their heart filled..
but why not mine..
the feeling of emptiness is suddenly back!!
and it is so so so tangible...
haix. sometimes really dont understand why...
haix..
and this few days.
some how. some day...
i was late for school....
haix.. and the lecture really sianx diao sometimes...
haix. i am already trying very hard not to fall asleep...
trying not to fall asleep during lectures...
monday got stats lesson!! interesting..
the attendance was so overwhelming that the management people had to do a spot check on the people...
then, lynda had to walk out of the lecture.
i borrowed the notes from my friend..
really thanks so much..
apprepciate it..
sociology ended late..
then my friend couldnt board the bus..
so sorry.. not purposely de.
but really thank you so much
hahas...
and i suddenly realised that i have got a very serious problem.
and i am trying not to think of it so seriously...
is that addiction???
lol. i start to think that it is addicition...
it can only be pure addiction bahx...
due to the fact that i cant find any reason or explanation to it.
or it doesnt seems so simple??
and there are more into it? haix..
i am so so confused now... hoping that an explanation will just pop into my mind...
will it???
hopefully it will. but is it just addiction only..
then. the problem is.........
if it is just addiction, then. will i be able to overcome that addiciton??
but... if it is just addiction. then why will i still think of it??
i just cant take it out of my mind...
my mind is filled, but not my heart....
the emptiness just never fails to engulf me...

`i need to prove that it was just pure addiction_____